Bellarive - The Heartbeat
Barely beating now
My heart is overcome
I fear there's nothing left for You
Can You hear my heart from there
It seems the distance is
What I chose to bear
So rip these tendons
they hinder my reach towards You
Rip these tendons
Would You meet me here
Where I rest my bones
Where I lay my head down
This place is my escape
Oh God
I need You to initiate
Light up the sky
Set our hearts on fire
Let us see our Creator
If the Titanic was made to sink
Then so was my heart
For I made sure it was impenetrable
Oh
what a wretched man I am
Who will save me from this flesh
Paul whispers in my ear
“Oh
don’t worry my friend …
You’re in good company”
Poets before me have tried
to measure this love
And if 40
000 brothers cannot
with all of their quantity of love
make up this sum
Then how can my heart contain this mass
It would only burst at the seams into
a million tender pieces
So what then
What good is a broken heart to You
Could you even hear my heart from there
And like a father assuring his son
to come home
“Oh my son
it’s enough
it’s enough”
So who am I to accept this grace
that just falls like rain
‘Cause we all know I chose to lay
my head in this desert
But like a fish out of water
We only know then what it means
to be parched
So if Christ is alive
the love
and the groom
Then take heed my friends
For chivalry is not dead
For I know no other lover who would
have met me here in this place
So I awake and I rise from my bed
of complacency
my God I’ve been sleeping
with a corpse
and these bed sores they still
rest in my bones
how I’ve made a beautiful dance
with this cadaver but my audience
is appalled
how strong these tendons
How they desperately need to rip
from this ancient Adam
So light up the s_ and
Set me a flame
Burn this bone and tissue
For I no longer want to be
entangled in this sinew
That hinders my reach towards You